i feel really alone.
like in a forever alone kind of way.
i have friends and i have people i can talk to.
i just feel alone.
i’m sitting in this empty townhouse all by myself and over thinking everything.
I had the meanest customer at work yesterday, she was totally bashing me and telling me I was a bad employee and was livid because i wouldn’t give her cash back for a return she bought with a credit card. It’s a company policy and then she was mad at my manager and asked if there was someone above him here, which there obviously wasn’t and so she asked for a corporate number. That really sucks because we get write ups for that kind of stuff. awesome.
and i’m not a bad employee, i’m employee of the month for goodness sake.
but it still hurts my feelings.
and then she tried to compare us to hollister who just gave her the return money back.
i had a job shadow today and forgot to put my blink 182 bracelet on (it was strict office dress code) and then i lost it.
I’m devastated. completely saddened.
i want to cry.
i never take it off.
for that reason…that i would probably lose it.
im sad now.
it makes me sad.
wahhhhh its over. i just want them to play forever and ever, just make it last forever.
The angels and airwaves “Spread hope like fire” shirts from their website is sold out!! I’m so sad!! :(((
I’ve been feeling really down today for some reason. Just like I’ll never find someone that will love me. That I have too many imperfections, that I’m too flawed. I feel like I may have too high of expectations for a guy. I have a type for sure with exactly what I want. I have always known exactly what I want. But never found a guy to fit those. And I’m not the prettiest or slimmest girl for sure so I feel like I’ll never find someone let alone have that guy like me. I just wish for someone I could talk to and be with and be happy all the time just to be with. Don’t get me wrong, I’m so thankful for what I have, a mom and dad that are still together after 25 years and love me more than anything and thankful that they are helping me pay for my college and that we have a nice house and new cars and nice things. But I feel like my life is missing something. The companionship of having another person to talk to all the time. To talk to when you’re sad, to share joys with and just be completely dedicated to. Sure I have a best friend but I can’t talk to her about everything and she has a boyfriend to care about too. I guess I just want someone totally consumed with me, totally caring and always available to talk to. It’s something I feel like I’m missing out on. I can’t shake the feeling that I’m missing something.